The muse shows me her rusty knife
A ball
Of crimson
Acid
Reflecting me
You
The world
Balanced
On the point
Of a blade
Well worn
Rusty
Rusted
Oxidised
In crimson
Acid
Stained
Scared
In stories
Decorated
On a knife
Edge
Carved
On a sleeve
A heart
Encased
In silver
Scared
By this blade
Stained
In crimson
Acid
The muse waves from the shore
Open promises fade
On the glimpse of regret
Soothing words
Wont mend
Tears of sufferance
Spill into my drink
I harbour a sea of patience
Still I sail alone
I lament the muse
Crimson in beauties death
Washed by the waterfall
You saw me pretty once
While the muses watches TV I look into the sun
Rape me
Twist me
Spin on me a lesser being
Higher than a dream can take you
Slide into my world
See through my eyes
Twisted in images of fragmented hellions
Leap from me
Flames of atrocities
Spawned
Bleed
From fingertips
Torn from hands yet born
Mockingly laugh
As I smirk a grin of regret
And adorn you with platitudes
Of get fucked
While blinking
I wash
The tears of the sun away
I give the muse a promise to believe
You tell me you want the sun
Burning candlelight
Flickering dreams
Shadows paint ominous pictures
Winged in feathers of grey
Skip and play on the stucco
I will give you what I can
Out of sight
Out of mind
I can only give the rest of my life
Fragile as its worn
Draped as a delicate fine gold chain
Catching light
Melting as breath licks each link
While you move to capture warmth
Simple pleasure gives you more
Ever wanted
Ever needed
Drink the suicide
Tipped on the tongue
Of a bloodied receiver
Snared barbed in wire
Silver coated
Wrapped in a corset
Of a common man
Not an angel
As you would believe
Given salvation
Given light
Given hope
Given love
Poets Rally week 58
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The muse mocks meI
m gunna see if your listening
Take this rusty blade and carve your name
Etch it deep within
Let the warmth of my life
Congeal in the dust
Blissfully weep at my feet
Then Ill crawl inside
Somewhere to die
Nowhere to live
Let me suffer alone
Spin my web
Elongated fingers drench death
Dipped in filth
And I see your face
Grimaced in disguised disgrace
Lacking of emotion
Im sorry I made you
Im sorry I hate you
How do I spell your name
The muse casts me a curious glance
Enshrouded in a shattered sail
Liquid in gold remnants glistening in a bejewelled embrace
Escape from the cataclysm broached in fire
Downcast please forgive the sin
Five fingers held for this affection
Draped in silver threads entrancing the beguiled
Hazed in the heat of carnal thoughts ridden in on a demons wing
Musk heady on the senses arouses carnal desires
Pieced in a puzzle of conflicting thought
Lines of fragmented stimulants ease the self
Clarity in split visions form perspective in two’s
Tepid afterthought leaves a smile
A dance on the web
Leaves little for chance
I throw my heart to the wind
And accept my fate
The muse and I share the draw of a hookah
Lie awake on the waft of a sea breeze
Ruffling the curtains of silk on an angels hair
Moonlight flows majikally through the window
Breaking as the pages turn of poetic tome
Peel gowns flowing silkily of insatiable desire
Implant acid dipped in lace syringed in silver
Pulsating veins of blue as head rush increases intensity
Flickering eyelids attest to the play in another land
Peel crackling paint from the ceiling taste the indifference
Unfurl and climb Repunzel’s golden trusses lift to the stars
Skip and dance from Orion's Belt to the plains of the Moon
A fall will cause no pain as pain is intolerable to the dead
Realisation dawns in the dark
Kiss away all possible hopes
Dreams that will rest on a silken thread
Hanging tenuous as life itself as it spins in the breeze
And of life the great unknown
Less remains from yesterday than the day before
Piss it away on the voices that murmur
Nothing matters anymore...nothing
This is the hour of my release
Tattoo goodbye on the promise Ive forgiven
Without a memory I can forget
Scar’s don't live forever with me gone
No more to justify shadows crossing the places that show remorse
I hold a hand out to cross my palm stained in another’s
Stained in the sins of a lifetime
Cleansed in the hopes we all live forever..... don't fucken kid yourself we don't
Time moves slowly in the last
I held dreams and wishes to have them melt away
As do the imaginings of other paths unchosen
Well its too late now, better to accept the realisation of the dark
Elegantly kinked
Checkered walls
Checkered floors
Into the looking glass
Checkered past
Pop another pill
Under sufferance
Standing tall
In another lifetime
Not this one
At another time
Let me show you the taste
Serve to you in a swill
Unsupported decadence forgotten in thoughts
Lips unlike mine pucker and kiss what first approaches
Death soon follows on a plate of sweet marshmallows
Legs that bend soon become hallow
A voice was heard
Whispered in shallow murmuring
Do you even remember the day
When the sky washed ashore
Arise from the soil as I breathe tarnished air
And sip a checkered board played as the kings do
one hand
one heart
that I touch
for one more night
I’ll serenade you in a dream
From the bar room in heavens waiting room
While St Peter serves me another tequila n lime
And the angels play pool with the demons
While Jimi screams out Voodoo Child from the stage
I strike up another doobie
And vanish in the smoke haze
Wishing it was all it could be
one hand
one heart
that I touch
for one more night
Dull my senses from the jar I keep in the corner
Sealed in secrets of the darkest nevermore
Lest they spill and sully along the checkered floor
Come share a smoke with me on the outside
Keeps you from getting into my inside
Littered down the rabbit hole
Hit with the sharp end of a mighty big stick
Here wear this hat
Let it slip to your shoulders
Look theres another day
What is this in this cigarette?
As the weasel plays a mean blues harp
And the goldfish wink at me while holding a full house
Nor do the bounce when left to swim in the slipstream
Pat the black dog before he barks and moves me from here
Living in the reality of another mistake
Licked and grooved in the summers of mornings before
I kiss the whore and taste the sum of all her treats
And wake to hear the Red Hot Chilli Peppers golden beats
Softly I surrender
As I bow to the breeze
Silver tendrils nuzzle my skin
I can feel your warmth in soothing grace
Emotions let in and bathe me in tender
Rest on a finger before you depart
I feel to myself
A kiss to the butterflies wing
In the time of serenity
Between the sun and luna
Shimmers of red and gold
Sweep the sky on the turn
Elongating shadows
Caress the place where we lay
Entwined in the thoughts
A hand held in another’s
While dreams dance elsewhere
Trust is exchanged
On the beat of a heart
While diamonds glimmer in the night
A rose rests in each place
All that is left
Is a name
Not a face
If Im quiet I can hear it
Rest in the cup of my hands
Eyelids droop
Pretty as the butterflies play
Listless on a summers day
Drink in the aqua blue
Serenade me on your fingertips
Pirouetting are the fairies
Glistening wings shimmer in the heat
Silver puffs blow away the gray
Its her I hear you say
Eyes adjust focus from the blur of sleep
White dressed in shadows
Fogged in textures
Held just out of reach
Perfumed in breath
Of lavender and heath
Trill of the song
Masks the footfall
Hummingbirds whistle along
My eyes follow the disturbance in air
Refracted in a memory
Wishing you where really there
Living less satiated
Than the beginning of this day
Lulled back into sleep
I wake in the knowing
A dream is but a memory
Feeding off the black
As it flows from my loneliness
Devoured on a leopards heart
Gorged before midnight
On the promises of lies
Left in the memory of you
A single breathe away
Liquid in lies
Touched in torment
Of grief
Splattered around these pictures
Spread upon the floors
Tearing at my knees
Broke down and wasted
Face down I give
You my heart
Served on a bed of roses
Thorns pricked in the blood of sin
Take a shot
You could never
Never
Leave
Open eyes
Stare remorseful
Blessed
In the tones of serious
Goblets of pure
Drink in the need
Barefoot
Hands touch the bricks
Fortify
My world
From your grip
I watch you slip
Never ending cascading waves caress the bejeweled
Silent moons reflect yesterdays tears shimmering on their journey
Faraway lights glisten in the glimmer of dreams cupped in warm hands
I close my eyes and wish to sleep forever on clouds of vermillion
As you bend and kiss my brow with your ruby red lips leaving your soul
The beat of this heart ceases to be when left in the care of another
Suns shine and rise in each mornings breath failing to melt the dew
Each day is a promise Ive lived in forever of you
In return the mirror shatters sharding the pieces to the winds of four
Trapped in an eternal embrace of ambivalent tones
This knife plunges deep to end this timeline and whisper goodbye
Slipping in the dreams that are much maligned
Soothing as the reflective candle flickers
Eloquently wrapped in angles wing
My kisses make you bring
Suffragettes dressed in dour splendor
Fingers delivers oblique touch
Soothing found in midnights playground
I kiss your mind as it delivers relief
Look deep lest it brings pain
Wallowed in serene
Calloused be thy shy misgivings
Taste me one more time
Live inside
Delve inside
Play inside
See what your dreams become
Captured by a moment in time
As a feather embraces your heart
A bead of sweat rolls gently down
The curvature of your breast
Rocked only by the gentle pulse
And short sharp breaths
Pausing to rest on your firm nipple
Before my tongue rescues it from its trek
Fingers caress softly
Well moistened from exploring
Undulating thighs encourage progress
A soft moan escapes sweet pursed lips
You raise to meet love
Pleasured in expectation
Pupils dilated with erotic desires
Meet in final purpose
Split in the heart
Formed of two separate
Defined in form
Of lives lived
Less than normal
One of shimmer
One of life's ink
A shadows cast
Is another’s refuge
Struggle within the whole
Purpose out of function
Derives sanctuary
Hopes for permanence
As one nurtures
One devours light
Yet both live within
Share the vessel
Control of mind
A smile
A grimace
A thought
A word
Sip
Of the bubble
Transcending
From the depth of the flute
Glistening
In gold
Light captures the contours
Penetrating this skin
Crazy patterns
Disguise the bit
The colour of my spit
Melts the paint
From the sidewalk
Silver barbiturates
Gasp in the mirrors
Of attraction
Shoot them up
This stories a joke
Without a consuming
I aint loosing
Flow in this jam
Slick on me brother
Turn another trick on the loose
B cup dont impress me
When I got 2 cups to hold
I am alive
Drink in the copious
Absorb passion
Let the sun
Kiss my face
Dripping whiskey
Inhale on the acrid
Red tipped cigarette
Breathe dragons fire
On the exhale
Footfalls scuff
Well worn soles
Silver tipped
Cowboy boots
Squint into the sun
Retain a focus
Of what has become
From the best of me
Essence of kewl
Dressed so silently
Draw another
Absorb another side of me
And exhale
Damnation years
Served in toil
Wear the scars well
Every mark tells a story
Hesitate on the apology
No one ever looks at me
A draw on the end
I tip my hat
Throw my cigarette to the sea
Portrayed
In the love and the hate
Displayed
Upon your chest
Layered in the braille
Fingers swiftly caress
Learning
Learned
Deep seated emotions
Hidden from view
Door closed on all
Shown to the complete
On the whim of a disease
Its all blown away
A single piece
Remains
Secured from view
Held in the corner of my world
A small piece
Of you
Velveteen laden rooms covered in mirrors
Festooned facades herald the malformed
Welcome to the rebirth of the unfortunate
Buy a ticket for the freak show
Living disfigurement paraded for one and all
Punters that look on in belief of the fortunate few
Gothic crackling’s permeate surrounding air
There is no Snow White here in this refraction
Brought in upon the second face
Unsounded beauty tests inner souls
Dare to look beyond kaleidoscope of coloured iris
Will they lay with her tonight or any night?
Majestic as the freaks on the stage
Life less choosing as the one deserved
Carried as a bastardization of a lesser being
Care to look at the reflection of me and you?
The bitch sings love sonnets softly in the rain
Choice is yours if you listen
Its your decision
No one would blame you if you changed
Chance fleets quickly
Its come and gone
Feed the fire that burns in song
No blame to say its over
Its your decision
Cleared in overborne afterthought
Feed the blame
Spurring you on
No one would bend to pick the compassionate
Say to me its over
Its over
Captured in a reflection
I ask is everything going to be okay?
Its spoken into the light
Swallow these thoughts
I ask is it all going to be alright?
You have found me
Love dances slowly
I think Ive missed again
Can I feel anything?
Just the arms of loneliness
Look to the bottom of a glass
Taste the pills and the butterflies
Facetted in a diamonds face
I could never see again
Held in my hand
Should I apologise?
Warmth into my lungs
Secrets caress my chest
Can it all make sense somehow?
Its meant for this life
Cross legged sitting upon the floor
Contemplating my happiness of before
Between my fingers I hold my tomorrow
A bullet with my name
Shaped in the syringe that protrudes from my vein
Memories coagulate spreading their blood on the floor
Visions spinning haphazardly
As the demons sing in latin
Caressing my shoulders as I look in to the fires of blue
Friends cast off like discarded clothes as we bathe in the rivers
A final cleansing before I die
Do you want to die too?
Sit in my shadow and glisten as water heals
As this soul suffers in silence
Lips sewn shut yet I hear the silent screams of my own torment
The things Ive done that you wont
Blister the paint from the walls
Is all that we hold
Is all that we believe
Beautiful?
For the ungodliness remains
Tarnished in the unbeauty that the sunrise begins
For fuck sake turn to the sun and hold the moon in vain
And all I ask of you is to throw the final sod into my grave
As a whisper will show all that is forgiven
Mouthing nothings as the sentences fail to form
Breath the stain from my nostrils
As the its all passed in the blink of an eye
Let me drift
If I can
Borne on the waters
Of this life
Meander if you will
As it pleases
Drift to another sign
Restful of this life
Waft life as a feather
I will
Follow another reflow
At peace with this life
Carried as a care with no doubt
Unsullied as the breeze
Delivers me to you
Upon the goodness of our soul
Surrender
I could lay on down again
Mess with the laughter in my head
Serenity sleeps with wishes
I keep on falling down again
Cacophony dwells on sounds
Still life paints me a bowl of fruit
Slow
Down
Rushings of movement
Instil fears of transsexuality
Why do you face in me
Without a black and white twisted
Porno being
Hypnotic
Ha
and fuk you
Insufferable intolerant whore
Another fuker without a life
Praise
Belief
Dignified
Time to sit down boy
You drive in circles
Saintly tomorrow
I will haunt you
The one who
LIES
RISE
Step
Slow
Oblivious to truth
Written with good intentions
In the mark of a muse
I remember when
With you
I could kiss a prayer
Stop
If I beg forgiveness
Id blame me for the thousand years
Of drought and the darkest nights
Settle on the mists
Of yesterdays bygones
Could you look at me
If your eyes are sewn shut
Barbed tongues
Listen to me
Melt in the warmth
Get out of the way
Guttural tones emanate
Look away
Harken back to this
Here I am
Slapped into tomorrow
Lost and I feel
Do I want this
Do I know
What are you gunna say
Silent as whispers to the dead
I remember when
With you
I could kiss the dead
Juggle
Its behind these eyes that I see
the truth and lies that others cannot
As I hold my fist
Clenched
Tight
Knuckles turn white
With anger
Fear
As it's behind these eyes that I see
That, that others cannot
Vision is clear
Unhindered by vortexes of alibis
Confused no more by lips that move
Phrases twisted to suit the author
Settled silently on ears that meddle
These eyes observe
The silent cues
Subtle
Minuscule
But tell their own stories
Of deceit
It's behind these eyes that I see
The truth
Sorry peeps closed it too many fake id's n spammers that I had to keep blocking dont have time for that shit
In the aeons I have felt my heart cry
Begun from the lonely parting of the forgiven emptiness
Suffered at the hurried passing of time
In all the while each hand travels its journey unfeeling
Forever until the ends of this life lived
Yearning for the one unhad or unknown
Insufferable loss from the never knowing
Love that could have been if allowed to nurture
Taboo but for the dreams spun in the mists
While weavers hurriedly spin webs for others in the same plight
Aggrieved at the mournful nature of being the one
Suffering the loss of a piece of soul
A twin hewn as one in aged oak
Separated only by oceans in the breath of a sigh
These are the only tears I cry
Now watch it flow
As it spills upon ya
Gotta keep that look upon your face
You’ll never trust yourself
As you slip into the psychedelic
Its now Im not
And Ill never be
A patsy to your lies
You’ll never trust me
As the clouds close their eyes
They set the price to high?
This time they got it right
It will give me so much pleasure
You’ll never trust them
A look on angels wings mean you’ll die
Slam down a tequila or two
Upturn your glass on the bar
Stare down any mother fucker
I’ll never trust anyone
Four horsemen turn and walk away
Suckle on tit
For the pleasure of two
A cartridge less spent
Never trust never
The illusion is you
Do you see me
Sitting here
Each day as you pass
While I draw on a smoke
N watch the day roll on by
Clouds cast there shadows
Rollin along the ground
Creating surreal landscapes
Of coloured hues
Do you see me
While Im watchin you
Rushin to get to the never ever
Forgetting a look to the side
Missing the flowers as the bloom
The way your heels click as they clack
Footfall upon cobblestones
Squishing the multitude of ants at your feet
While I draw on a smoke
While I draw on a smoke
I inhale your perfume
As you click clack by
Oblivious to me
So aware of you
Its Tuesday
You have your red dress on
I often wonder
Who you wear it for
While I sit here
As I sit
N while away my days
Till the never end
You and others
Shuffle on by
I often imagine
Who you are
N where your from
While I draw on a smoke
Allow me if you will
To dip your hands
Into the primal mess
That conditions my mind
To the visions less pleasant
Obscene
From the outside
More so from the inside
As the dogs
Pack rape me
Fuking my insides out
Tearing me
Into new pieces of another mess
Yet it soothes
Peaceful washings of insufference
Beg you to question my indifference
To your mindless questioning
Of my pleasures of the other kind
That suffer and lurk
Pristine in my veins
Corpulent rushings
Teasing the unhappiness
From the fearful placing of lurking
Self medicating love places its kindness
Squarely on my frontal lobes
Ceases me from questioning
Why I wont be born again
Cleansed from the womb
Unlike the last time of passing
It would be of my own choosing
As my memories live in these veins
Blood runs red living at my feet
Snap of the fingers
Yet I live once again
As do you
You insufferable cunt
One by one I lie to my shame
As dark as my eyes
Viewing in the unseen
A penny for your denial
A I fucken spit
Loose teeth shatter
On the pavement
Severed skulls crack at my embrace
I wont pretend
Nor will I
Suffer at your insanity
Least it quell my insanity
Or is it normalcy
That is inherited
Running from the time of this life
As I choose to run with with this devil
I hold your hand
In case you forget to breathe
Near me you feel my sturdiness
Feel your heart beating down
In these dreams
The light washes over and welcomes
Warms me in pleasing
Knowing Im alive
A look in the mirror
Beyond my reflection
I see what Ive become
Grown wings of gossamer and gold
Covered in this garb of plain
To see beyond
Is a joy to behold
Living beyond the ignorance
Tattoo’s a mirror
Pretty pictures that cover a soul
That burn with light
Radiating for those that see
If I can live with a smile
And warm a dreary day
I can leave you asleep
Leave and caress your cheek
A thousand bare footsteps
I’d make for you
If you’d ask
I lay down and die
Subtle
Supple
Push my fingers through the inside of my skin
Lick the fingers clean
Essence of vanilla cream
On the inside
Now outside
Confession of a remember to forget
Kiss the tip of a cosmic regression
As a soul thirsts for the comic
Smudged in nail polish
Scribbled in lipstick on the mirror
Painted on the bathroom walls
As the freaks point and
Sip
Sip
Sip
Lacking in desire
Lusting for the honey pot
Clenched betwixt feted thighs
You can go and kiss your fucken goodbyes
Bye
Bye
Bye
Slick
Smooth
Play the wicked
As games played by the maestro
Kiss my shotgun
It ends for you
Settled quickly
On the roll of a dice
Just let me stand still
As the world comes crashing in
Assaulted by the blur of life
Sometimes just let it stop
Allow me if you can
A moment to breathe in the space
Between then and now
So I can just fuck off from everyone
Transcendental curing succumb to peace of mind
Escaping in the blurred transitioning of literalism
Hyperbolic fabrications compressed by the medication of prescription
Let me suck your eyeballs out from the inside
Happy in dreamtime Im not
Let me spin inside my head
Fuck the colours living on the screen
Murderous intent while it moves
Stop and reflect on the mirages
Let me absorb the smells
As it winds and continues
Just let it fucken stop
I wipe my hands on the finishing
Disturbed by the dirt
I lost control of yesterday
Does any of this matter
Summer dreams blow on by
In the passing of a scream
I cast a glance over a shoulder
Does any of this mater
Drawing a long breath of sorrow
Stones are thrown to the middle
Ripples spread eloquently to the shore
Does any of this matter
Im gone as do my memories
Long drawn out gazes to the visions
I wont let go till you leave
Does any of this matter
Bleeding until colour remains
A single lock the key
Dirt remains under nails
Does any of this matter