Listen alone

Colours that enhance life lived

A harlequins kiss split in two

Dreams that once hid in a lie

Come to life on the back of my hand

Taking a chance on a word

I turn my head to drink the rain

I though I'd learnt a lesson in another life

Thoughts intertwine in a single illicit passing of a nothing

Brief may be the illusion of dancing 

Kiss me before you fall 

I know if I pass on this day 

Summer won't wait till the dawn 

Succulent yet the trees bleed

Passing time in the way I breathe

Words that have another meaning

Disappearance of a soul in blackness

Twist a look into a smile hidden beneath

Your eyes dart seeking solace in the void

Skin blisters into a shadow of remorse

I dance alone as I have no partner

Trust

In silence I hear the world 

I close my eyes to allow the nothing to envelope me

Her soft fingers pass by my skin

The breath of passing

Calming my being

I still myself and breathe deep

Absorb her beauty and being

Giving myself completely

Her smile warms my soul

As it does everyday

Trusting her with my heart

Cocooned in ruby and gold

Allowing her to hold

That which is precious to me

That which is now hers

Cherish

Cherish

I am not you

You nor me

Two lives lived

Diverging pathways

Intertwined in separate lifetimes

Meeting as a glimpse in this

A passing in that

 

Cherished be this meeting of souls

For it be lost again

Until the next passing 

Not remembered in the last

But known as a feeling

A memory forgotten

Sensed on the drift of the stars

Only a memory

 

Cherish time spent as this will pass

Time erases yesterday

Hurt erases tomorrow

A cut on a slender wrist

Only reminds of what has been

Yet lingers as a gentle reminder 

Of the two who loved 

Once

Hurt

A heart wrapped slender in barbed desire

A trick of words spilt on wonton tongue

Half truths and denial litter sentences that mean nothing

Left to rot amongst the discarded souls

 

Little left for the eye to imagine 

A life lived in hateful shadows

Ruminates upon reliving again

Scars that envelope a hearts living

 

Breath for the self sustains only a single heartbeat

Little else grows in a life less filled with sun

Cut out and again in an breath of one

Hurt is filled in the one less loved

 

Growth is suppressed as a step is backwards

Into the shadow of the lightless sun

Actions that cut scarring new skin

I close my eyes wishing to cease seeing

Life lived in the colour of a skin

 

Proudly displaying a heart worn sleeve

From the sun that rises discovering a dream

A mask that is worn bleeds acid and tears

Splattered on canvas a breath is believed

A thousand faces peer from beneath

Blindfold draws out an Angels scream

Pierce these hand from thorns of green

A mumble of words unheard by those unspoken

Silence bleeds vermillion scratchings left on a wall

My name is said in the evenings ache

It's taken seven lifetimes for me to awake

A new path

Innocence stripped to the bone

Hounds circle smelling blood

Stench of an easy feed to taunting

Keeping their muzzles satiated

From the words that beckon derision

Two moons left to wain

A history of love and pain

Till one can weep no more

Casts it's shadow in the black that bleeds

No starlight to glimmer in a last refrain

Flames that cast no light

Never feeding the shadows that dance in the silence

Forever feeding the hounds that bay

And the others shallow lives living their own merger existence

Not even the jester laughs but mourns 

Healing touch to walk alone in the black

Seeking light emanating from a future yet to be

Hope lives in the air that's breathed

Love lies in a life rejected

A key is held by both who walk together

 

In the sweet arms

Im walking blind 

As I try to breathe

Live in your breath

Allowing me to understand

As I hold your hand

 

Nothing can stop the bleed

Emanating from the open wound

Distant memories

Clouded in shadows

Clouded in memories

 

I can only walk in the sun

If you allow tomorrows breath upon your hair

Knowing Ill be there in your shadow

Ready to catch the fall 

As it screams a new voice

 

Watch you plant a garden 

Watch the daffodils grow

Living in the new growth begun

Ready in this life

To begin again

In the sweet arms of a child

© 2014 Adrian AIDZ Giannini

 

 

Life remains the same

A Friday night 

As any other 

The souls drift on 

The tales told a thousand fold

Exaggerated for the listening few

Shadows lick the smoke stained walls

Stained with the memories of all who speak

Light turns to night 

Clientele the same

A thousand different collars

The stories all the same

I drift n smoke the shadows

On the same Friday nightly stem to the jukeboxes last refrain 

Chisels on the the last train

I smoke last 

Drink my last

Say goodbye again

Allow

Allow me to breathe

Silently

Steadily

Allow thought to express free

Unconstrained by the memory beneath

Hidden from view

Closed behind doors locked tight

Rooms held dark 

Where I am yet to breathe

Silently

Steadily

Allowing visions to swirl

In a myriad of unconstrained emotion

Painting thoughts in faces hidden in the depths

Eyes closed tight 

Shying from a tomorrow yet revealed

Lacking of colour in a sunset unborn

A pause

Revealing a soul tainted in pain

Obscured by black

Silently

Steadily

Allow me to breathe

Without your pain

Covered in skin

In the sun I eat the dirt

Congealing on my hands

From the spit spewed from my mouth

Torn at the edges 

Ragged from the talons that clawed my flesh

Dripping vermillion 

Dripping disease 

This heart cannot kiss a wind

This heart cannot save it's own soul

If left to ruminate on words

Uttered in haste

Spoken in the shadow of a closed hand

Whispered in the retched bile of a sin

I have lost you now

This I know

For I see not a shadow

But a forlorn empty space

Covered in an outline of tomorrow

Covered in your blood

As I cover you in my skin

Forever

Walk with me

Lived in the rain 

Cleansing 

Hope scattered in the splash of a puddle

Reflected of the sky

Steady tattoo of sound

Pitter pat

Pitter pat

Heavy are the feet that walk the mud

Heavy is the heart that only sees ground

Afraid to lift their head

Afraid to see what I see

No beauty is seen in the dark

Eyes hide the glint of once that was

Eyes belie the truth of that will be

Pitter pat Pitter pat

In the palm of my hand I hold yours

Intertwined fingers clasp for anything

Something

Allow me to be those eyes that see no more

Allow me to whisper a name in your ears

Unheard of since the rains began

I walk beside so you never walk alone

Pitter pat

Pitter pat

Tomorrow begins lonely

Silver trembles at thought of loneliness

Endured in the light of the new moon

Eyes cast to the heavens from lands away

Viewing the same stars in constellations unknown

And I kiss

 

Silken touches of skin electric

Tenderness devours eclectic rhythms born of sorrow

Words left unsaid feed the baying hounds

Confuse the jester now as a card is played

And I kiss

 

Layered in cashmere you hide to obscure

Kaleidoscopic distortions live the truth

Eyes give away reality to that left unsaid

Shrouded in protection giving way to seduction

And I kiss

 

In the realm of another place I see your reflection

As a single hand touches as words whisper unspoken

Reveal trust in the guise of forever

Reveal yesterdays torment as another scar of protection

And I kiss

 

Sail me through the wake in seas of a calm storm

Intolerable as the future guides nothingness 

Weening from the teet of a new day

Hidden in the illusion of self doubt

And I kiss

 

Dodging raindrops as they fall gold from the stars

Skin coloured alabaster glistening in the sun

I call nothing and whisper your name

A gypsy’s smile cast in a spell of love

And I kiss

 

In the last kiss goodbye

I linger a moment more

Holding your breath

Listening to the evermore

And I kiss

© 2014 Adrian AIDZ Giannini

Attraction

Rust descends on us now

As flickering candlelight shows our many facets

Much maligned I rest on blended knee

Raising my head as it is guided by your hands

Eyes meet eyes exposing tortured souls

Each knowing the others past before word are spoken

The last of the moons crescent glimmers silver

Darkness exposing the fragility of our humanity 

The uneven rhythm of lapping waves match our heartbeat

Calming the demons that live beneath this, our skin

Each soul has met before on the fields of sunset

Painted hues of vermillion coating the sky as it once coated our hands

Yesterday ends as tomorrow begins

Both knowing that this dance lives in eternity

Self

In the shadow of an angels wisp

I walk alone

My company a heart of gold

Scarred from a journey of years

Skin littered with the remnants of life

Burdens of others carried in a pocket jingling of loose change

Each mask worn protects from prying eyes

The fragile inner worn weak and easy to break

Let no other soul in lest the fragility be born

Look to the stars in hope and restitution 

Silence greets me now words unspoken drift on the currents

Reflection on the sands brings an end to a new day

Voices heard scatter as clearing the mind

Allow me to return to the place of mirrors

I see you and you see me

I see myself again

Reflections

Crying yourself to sleep as a forgotten yesterday closes in

Acid dipped and toxic chrome glistens in blood 

Discarded you leave a light on to save from stepping on glass

Syringes littler another day scratching your name on the wall

Somewhere a scream is carved in a distant memory

I cannot remember when I heard your name whispered in my ear

Listen 

Hush my sweet 

Buried in your skin is a key to this belonging

Chance be taken as I drift into severed dreams

Gritty is the kiss on lipstick lips painted scarlet like words scrawled on the mirror

"Death becomes hypnotic resolutions"

Laughter 

Mocking the shadows as they close into my being

Hush 

Listen to the voices in my hand

Travel the carousel in its never ending journey passing angels on my side

To change a fragment in time when the hands have passed

Eloquent words fall on ears with no sound 

Begin

Begin again

Pure emotion overtakes the maligned thoughts crawling the ceiling

Fractures envelope every corner 

Every sentence uttered begins again 

Every syllable hides the true thought as you begin to grow again

 

 

hope

Twisted in the shards that lie dying on the canvas
Fragments of hope sung on beats of a butterflies wing
Can you see me now as I kiss the refracted light
Lullabies burn devouring colours from the sunset

Dislocated by the congealed blood under these fingernails
Dissipating memories recoil as today forms the photographs of a mind
From here we can see the shadow of the gods as they rest now
Building from the beginnings as life turns it back on what has begun

Reality bleeds into the river as one to have never seen love
Tasting virtues belonging to another time I do the best i can
Footsteps leave a trace in rays of sunlight burnt into this skin
Blowing the dust from the ground as I sit and I wait


© 2014 Adrian AIDZ Giannini

Someday

colours blend turning to black as the sunsets on another day

lived again on the edge of a rusty blade balanced on the tip of another soul

how would you know what it means to feel as my bleeding fingertips stain the sun

 

reflected in the convex mirrors distorting the shades of yesterday

hints of redemption savour the Harlequins trust blown as kiss in the ether

standing on time borrowed from the Gypsy as she casts another spell into the wind

 

awakening huddled tightly into your soul as it calms me from the shadows

I capture your breathe in mine and gather thoughts and dreams as the waves break

saving the wreckage outcast as a comfort scattered amongst a crackled sky

 

redemption scribbled quickly on the back of a postcard yet to be sent

seven skins devoured temper the soul as we dream of a clear blue sky

inject adrenaline appeasing the heart as my head bows and cries as I inject again

 

 

lost

As endless tears flow

Staining a page inscribed with ink

A future yet written on parchment

A poets heart bleeds in black

 

Palms held empty by the loss

Vision that that once saw so clearly

Words and letters dance alone

Appearing in time as line in this poem

 

Loneliness grieves as words lament

Loneliness a lost soul marked on skin

Loneliness traced in fragments of air

Loneliness is wishing you where here

 

 © 2014 Adrian AIDZ Giannini

 

angels name

the muse returns and leaves me to die alone

I cracked my head 

So I had better lie down

Thoughts abound

I had better try suicide

I drink the blade

Taste the blood on my tongue

Feel the blade dig deep 

Touch the vein 

Blackness escapes

Inject the next psychotic 

Into my neck

Id rather the blade to taste

Trip this and trip that

Some mutha fukkas gunna find me

Blue and cold to the touch

My soul a fading

Black days from this mind frame

I cannot see beyond

Shadows come to great me

My mumma is beyond the light

Who knew this could be may fate

I live to the Gypsy dancing my grave

Not that Ill know

Ill be cold and buried in times forgotten few

Too many sitting at the church

Wishing me goodbye

False people living a lie

Misery lives sunder this skin

Living in my veins

Acids curse

But one knows my name

Inked with tears on his cheek

A scar on his heart

One but knows 

The angels name

 

 

© 2014 Adrian AIDZ Giannini

 

face down

the muse returns with vengeance in her thoughts

Screaming from my lungs in the colours of sunsets past

Seething as my blood boils cold at the touch of you

Seven times Ive forgiven the innocent

Seven times Ive cried in colours of the Laurette 

A black veil hides your ideals and your life

Unseeing eyes appear hollow as the words you use to hold me

In the palm one hand I hold forever 

In the other I hold your salvation

Clenched now forever tight trickling blood slowly towards the dirt

Leaving me scared and unable to forgive

Open a torn heart exposed to the sun burnt from your love

Ravens devour hate perched on a slender arm of doubt

Whispering in my ear your name scratched in their crackled caw

 

This love tastes of excess

This life stinks of extreme

 

 

© 2014 Adrian AIDZ Giannini