Contemplating

I weep for loves lost I weep for those departed
I walk in my own shoes I walk to clear my soul
I smile at the warmth I smile at what could have been
I reach out for you I reach to hold your hand
I close my eyes to think  I close my eyes to hear
I contemplate my future I contemplate whats past
I listen to learn I listen to see
I remember past happiness I remember to not repeat
A thousand thoughts A thousand misgivings